Heavy Chin

I was feeling downtrodden earlier this week. Feelings of not-good-enough-ness were crushing me. I was working hard and getting seemingly nowhere. My job seemed to be lacking freedom.

Now that I'm feeling better, it's a good time to remind myself of a few things of which I am proud/grateful:

• I made it through a ballet class last night. I wore pink tights, a black leotard, a ballet skirt, and legwarmers--the whole get-out. I did not feel like a twenty-five-year old has-been, and that alone was invigorating.
  
• I ran not one but TWO decently stimulating discussions with my students today.
• I smiled and laughed at school multiple times throughout the day. (i.e., I let go of control enough to enjoy my students, who are quite funny.)
• My pant waistbands are feeling a little loose.
• The final draft of my short story is on the eve of completion.
• I remembered that I still have decent chops on the piano and that playing and learning new pieces is something I can do.
• Leif's dad brought me some chocolate back from Norway.
• New CDs came in the mail today (Beck, among them!).

I hope that I can stretch this feeling of gratitude through the weekend.